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By
Gary Beck
My Country
My Grandparents came to America,
immigrants
fleeing danger and poverty
in chaotic Russia,
seeking a better life
in the fabled New World
that promised a future.
They left oppression behind,
as well as family members
too frightened to risk
a perilous journey,
later swallowed up
in the violent strife
of the Russian Civil War.
They managed to survive
in the new alien land,
but did not thrive,
bewildered by strange customs,
foreign language, rapid pace
of a modernizing country,
not like where they came from
barely out of the Middle Ages.
But their children went forth
young Americans
full of vitality,
hungry for opportunity
denied their parents.
And the offspring of peasants
got education, good jobs,
married, had children,
contributed to the growth of a nation.
When America entered World War II
cousins, uncles, joined the armed forces,
never questioning who was right,
answering the call
to defend their country,
willing to shed their blood
to thwart the threat
to the way of life
in the land that nurtured them.
The destructive war
ended with nuclear explosions
ushering in the atomic age.
And the soldiers returned from service
in Europe, Asia, other climes,
to a country become mighty
with a powerful army
that rushed back to civilian life,
while the huge economy
dominated the world.
The children of warriors
got higher education
than their patriotic parents,
while living in the shadow
of the Cold War
between East and West,
the Soviet Union the enemy
supported by captured countries,
opposed by America
and dependent nations,
culturally connected
by democratic ties.
The youngsters who grew up
with the threat of nuclear war,
taught to huddle under school desks
psychotically protected
by mutually assured destruction,
the theoretical deterrent
of annihilation,
continued social stress
that has accelerated
since the Industrial Revolution
made increased demands on humans,
unprepared by evolution
for rapid change.
Swift scientific advances,
byproducts of a creative war
demanded a higher level of functioning
then previously required
of the offspring of democracy,
and they bettered their lives
joining the middle-class.
acquiring luxuries
never possible before
for so many.
The children of prosperity
sated with abundance
regarded the way of the world
more judgmentally
then their comfortable parents,
and questioned the myths
of peace-loving America’s
foreign policy and exploitation
of third world countries,
other issues of the times.
And the best and brightest
went to foreign countries
lured by the glamour of the Peace Corps,
far more appealing
then serving the needy at home.
Yet enough stayed behind
to fight for civil rights
for an oppressed minority,
and again my kin joined the cause.
After the noble struggle for equality,
a simple case of right versus wrong
in idealistic America,
moral rectitude was suborned
by self-serving exploiters
who brain-washed a generation
with a mindless catechism
‘turn on, tune in, drop out’.
Dancing to the hypnotic tunes
of frenetic pipers,
the children of rebellion
opted to make love, not war,
and protested the assault
on the people of Vietnam.
Yet most of them never knew
where Vietnam actually was
and why American invaders
were slaughtering innocent peasants.
And the gap widened
between parents of stability
and children of indulgence,
whose liberal arts education
had not prepared them
for the capitalist reality
that ruled the world.
Yet most of them returned
to the system they protested,
succumbing to material comforts.
And the nation of dreams
began to fracture.
Illegal aliens
swarmed across our borders
seeking a better life,
as countless seekers before them,
yet they were unwelcome,
formed isolated communities
working under the radar,
always fearing deportation.
And the nation of assimilation
no longer assimilated.
Ethnic groups
formed ethnic communities
and no longer learned English,
even stores and street signs
were no longer in English.
They lived in a sheltering country,
but didn’t become Americans.
The children of the Information Age
are electronically social,
but less connected.
And inequality flourished
as capital accrued more overtly
then ever before
to the prospering few,
while many lacked jobs, homes,
and the democratic promise
eroded in economic contractions.
The children of the paperless age,
besieged with paper,
only know confusion,
and discovered the war on terror
on 9/11,
yet still do not understand
there are no innocents,
only enemies of radical islam,
who despise the sinful West
and it’s venal ways,
especially the Great Satan.
Our armies invaded the Mid-East
easily defeating an inferior foe,
smashing the infrastructure of a country,
replacing flawed stability
with chaos and civil war,
our gift of democracy
to a tyrannized people.
At home the middle class dwindled,
the working poor struggled to subsist
and homelessness spread across
America the beautiful
Then our well-traveled, well-equipped armies
invaded another Mid-East country,
pledging to build democracy,
targeting radical islamists,
But again we brought chaos
and civil war.
The people of the Mid-East
do not want the American dream
that allows wanton women
to walk the streets half naked,
while demanding equal rights with men.
From inception,
my righteous country
stole land, killed neighbors,
until the territory was controlled
from sea to shining sea.
Then we started stealing
from foreign countries
and forged an empire,
even though no one used the word,
and we began to dominate
the rest of the world,
mostly with dollars,
sometimes with armies.
The seas are no longer shining,
filled with more plastic than fish.
We strew more waste
on the exhausted land
than can ever be absorbed.
We poison the water, the air
and only the rich and powerful
have the means,
though not the will,
to try to halt
the slide to disaster.
My country is in great peril
envied and hated abroad,
divided and conflicted at home,
and the wealthy do not care
that they are compelled to share
our eroding nation
with the poor, homeless, illegals,
and all those who still hope
for a future for their children.
The short sighted custodians of power
must think they’ll escape to another land
when they wear out this one.
A Mighty Sway
When the Dutch landed
in the new world
and settled New Amsterdam
no one could imagine
four hundred years later
a great city,
sheltering millions,
more diverse
than any place on earth,
where most live in safety,
most have basic comforts,
while great wealth resides
just a few miles
from great poverty,
yet crime does not outweigh
good deeds, public service.
Various scholars
offer explanations
of this wondrous creation,
whose enterprising citizens
built marvels,
dazzling mankind
with the biggest, bestest,
the tallest,
one after the other,
still with the mostest,
finally bowing
to other nations
who put up the tallest.
And as our resources diminish
our people become fatter
less able to run from danger,
while our legions
spread across the earth
no longer compel fear
in our many enemies,
alienating our friends
with wavering policies
impoverishing our people,
resources strained
by imperial overreach,
the loss of will
to inflict our will
on others,
halts our expansion
leaving only contraction.
So another empire
that dominated the world
lost the means
to control the future.
Its brief reign,
shorter then any other great empire,
is quickly receding,
greatly facilitated
by the lords of profit
who in their greed
sent jobs and capital abroad,
disowning the working class,
erasing the middle class,
until all that remains
are haves, have nots
and the fearful,
not yet reconciled
to the loss of tomorrow.
Hard Times
On city streets where homeless sit,
row on row, a growing horde
beseeching passersby
with cardboard signs
proclaiming need.
And as winter grows colder
the abandoned men grow older,
weakening in the daily grind
to survive, endure,
without purpose, plan,
so far removed from privilege
that only unreasonable hope
prevents suicide
of a life already lost
in the unheeding world.
Non-Sentimental Education
My father’s profession
was cutting furs.
His fellow workers
wanted a larger share
of the soaring profits
enriching the bosses,
so their union negotiated
for a fair deal.
The bosses wouldn’t compromise
and the union called a strike.
I walked the picket line,
a nine year old supporting the workers
against their greedy masters.
The riot police responded
on foot and horseback
and I was clubbed unconscious,
my first government contact.
My family bought a house
attached to another house
but still splendid to me
with my own room,
after living on other people’s couches.
I went to a new school,
where a pack of bullies
tormented the helpless,
and the teachers never noticed,
fringe benefits
of the school system.
The bosses crushed the union
and my father lost his job.
We lost our house
and moved to a shabby apartment
in a nice neighborhood
that at night was gang infested.
The respectable citizens
seemed completely unaware
of the polluting offenders.
The police didn’t seem to care.
It felt like liberation
when I finally got to high school
but the heady taste of freedom
didn’t last very long.
The teachers weren’t better
than the uninspiring coven
in grade school.
The subject matter,
except for math and science
not my strong points,
only slightly more advanced.
I quickly discovered
the nature of the system
that oriented some students
to middle-class careers,
doctors, lawyers, engineers.
Others drifted towards the arts.
While most youngsters
were just prepared
for factory work
in our beckoning factories.
Then there were the misfits
who could not adapt
to the sterile surroundings,
outlaws, slackers, dumbbells
consigned to the fringe,
to be dispensed with
as soon as possible,
no room for the unwilling
in a stratified environment
designed to promote the facile,
stultify everyone else.
I did not thrive
in the luke-warm habitat,
my talents and abilities
unexplored, unchallenged.
I could only resist
being swallowed up
in the swirl of thousands,
most desperate for identity,
only finding comfort
obeying the system.
Again I was an isolani
in an alien world
I could not penetrate,
even if I wanted to
in a moment of weakness.
So I read, wrote, thought on my own,
growing further away
from the kids around me
who did not follow politics,
read newspapers,
lust to understand
the world they lived in.
A naïve part of me
still hoped for guidance,
recognition of my potential,
but I did not know
how to approach
the ossified portals of learning,
and my rash efforts
generally gave offense
and were speedily rejected.
Yet I was no longer a child
swayed by ignorant teachers
and my urgent search for knowledge
on how the world really worked
put me in conflict
with pompous drones,
fragile egos
threatened by questions,
preferring mindless acceptance
of stereotyped answers.
Weary of superficial mindsets
I went to college,
part of me still hoping
to find a love of learning.
It didn’t take long
to recognize the same system
slightly more sophisticated,
still focused on careers,
the logical continuation
of grade school, high school.
I quickly reached the limits
of tolerance for questing students,
questions and disagreement
disrupting pre-conceived notions,
unappreciated, even threatening
to the insecure custodians of knowledge
who preferred mindless acceptance
of rote lessons,
to industrious efforts
of understanding.
I met one instructor
willing to extend the boundaries
of pre-determined meaning.
But he aggravated his department
by allowing unauthorized discussions
and they fired him
for illicit deviation
from the standard course.
Inspired by the arbitrary dismissal
I left college to learn on my own.
The world I set out to explore
was not new and I was not brave,
just stubborn, determined
not to be another mindless token
shuttled across a restricted board.
But how to proceed trusting no one?
So each day I reinvented the wheel
groping diligently for understanding
only realizing after prodigious effort
the someone had done it before.
One lesson learned the hard way,
there was no scientific method
to comprehend life, art, ethics,
and trial and error became my way.
So many trials, so many errors
I did not know
the passions of youth
burning for enlightenment
could not achieve understanding
merely through urgent desire,
the most frustrating lesson of all.
Does History Repeat?
The Senate in Rome
hemmed and hawed
about threats to the state,
divided by class,
special interests,
personal ambitions,
yet the empire survived
longer than any other
artificially contrived
political entity,
until overwhelmed
by inability to govern,
barbarian hordes.
The Senate in America
hems and haws
about threats to the state,
divided by class,
special interests,
personal ambitions,
while vulnerable citizens
endure assaults,
foreign and domestic,
hoping not to be overwhelmed
by inability to govern
and defend the nation
against many enemies
at home and abroad.
Gary Beck
Gary Beck has spent most of his adult life as a theater director, and as an art dealer when he couldn’t make a living in theater. He has 11 published chapbooks and 3 more accepted for publication. His poetry collections include: Days of Destruction (Skive Press), Expectations (Rogue Scholars Press). Dawn in Cities, Assault on Nature, Songs of a Clerk, Civilized Ways, Displays,Perceptions (Winter Goose Publishing). Fault Lines, Tremors, Perturbations, Rude Awakenings and The Remission of Order will be published by Winter Goose Publishing. Conditioned Response (Nazar Look). Resonance (Dreaming Big Publications). His novels include: Extreme Change (Cogwheel Press) and Flawed Connections (Black Rose Writing). Call to Valor will be published by Gnome on Pigs Productions and Acts of Defiance will be published by Dreaming Big Publications. His short story collection, A Glimpse of Youth (Sweatshoppe Publications). Now I Accuse and other storieswill be published by Winter Goose Publishing. His original plays and translations of Moliere, Aristophanes and Sophocles have been produced Off Broadway. His poetry, fiction and essays have appeared in hundreds of literary magazines. He currently lives in New York City.
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