Poetry

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By

Aabida Gani

Assassination of Innocence

Oh Son of Adam,

When I sense your sick thoughts;

I feel I’m harassed.

When I catch your lustful eyes staring at me;

I squeeze my body and breathe in terror.

When I hear you speaking malevolent things about me;

I feel you’re cutting me with the tenon-saw full of rust;

That doesn’t tear me apart though; but still hurts me a lot.

I am harassed, when I catch your hand while trying to touch me;

I am harassed, when you tease me, using abusive and absurd words.

You do the crime of eve-teasing;

When even you know, it is a crime

I am harassed, when you follow me;

I am harassed, the way you gaze at me,

In public;

In school;

In hospital;

In the parks;

In college;

In bus;

And on the roads.

Your presence harasses me everywhere.

Terror stricken, my nights don’t let me sleep;

And insecurity keeps me up all night.

I am maligned in the gossip of the  town;

I am cursed for your sin;

I am assumed a blot;

I am disgraced for your respect.

People at home, smack me down,

And

Outside I am spitefully talked about;

I turn deaf and don’t utter a word in protest.

Within the bars of society,

How can i escape you;

And keep myself safe?

And

How could i live my part?

When every time you conspire about upsetting me?

Your immoral and immodest acts make me think, rethink and overthink.

Then;

My being compels me to do malignant things to myself;

I think of going away to a distant place;

But there is a limit set by society;

That I can’t cross.

I think of raising my voice;

But,

I am scared of slanderers;

For they would give malicious statements about me;

That my pious mother can’t bear.

To end all the stress from my life, I put an end to my life;

That doesn’t prove me weak;

That doesn’t prove me cowardly.

But my suicide makes you a murderer;

You being at fault, roam free of claims and I hang myself for your crime;

My silence stopped me speaking against you.

And I died an untimely death.

Aabida Gani

I am from Jammu and Kashmir and have completed a Masters in psychology with specialization in clinical psyhcology. I am currently doing my diploma in Creative Writing. I write more about societal and personal issues.