JULY POETRY

Enemy of Time

By

Emmanuel Sibanda

I’m growing up and i can’t deny it.

Even the actions i take are now well thought out.

Even the words i speak are wiser.

The way i see the world has changed.

More open and less bound by the limitations of ignorance,

I hate it,

I hate this sudden rationality i find within myself.

I hate this sudden wisdom i feel when i speak.

I hate this sudden confidence in my ability,

This desire to see the world with eyes wide open,

I hate it all.

It is as though i’m watching myself being buried alive.

It is like a dying a thousand times.

The very life i once existed in, slowly extinguished,

Consumed by the change that has fallen upon me,

I miss my old self.

I miss the childhood ignorance,

And the naivety that accompanied it.

I miss the days when reality and dream had no divide

I may have been close minded, but life tasted differently,

It was like hot chocolate after a long night, sprinkled with cayenne pepper.

Bitter sweet,

Every sense and emotion amplified,

Like felt like and dislike was stronger than hate itself.

Every emotion magnified itself in relation to my ignorance,

Every decision uncalculated.

Who had time for calculating when decisions had to be made?

Everything, including reality was skewed,

My world was the only world that existed,

The great realization that the world doesn’t revolve around me hadn’t set

If this is what life is; a mindless journey into the unknown,

I vow to find a loop hole,

They will not destroy me, i refuse to be taken alive.

I will fight till the very last cell falls from my skin.

Victory’s uncertain, i will find glory in the fight itself.

With this new found purpose and clear belief,

From now on i call myself the enemy of time.

Her Name is Dream

By

Emmanuel Sibanda

30 seconds ago you stole my heart, and everything in side of it,

Just a glance was all it took, nothing more

Those eyes of yours so alluring

Blue or black i couldn’t tell the difference.

That day, it changed my life,

It is not love but it’s stronger than lust,

Now i can’t wait till i see those eyes again

A smile and a nod, was all it took.

A smile bright as day to blind even the most perceptive,

A gaze to soften the hardest of hearts,

I know you’re not perfect, nothing can ever be,

But I cannot see beyond your beautiful smile.

For a moment i felt uneasy, a little bit nervous,

The desire i had i felt grow larger,

How can one human have such power over another?

How could i fall victim to this beautiful spell?

This cannot be real, it has to be a dream.

My thoughts froze for a moment i had nothing to say,

All reason was lost in the presence of her beauty

Sadly i know that she’ll never be mine,

Dreams are meant to be just that, dreams.

And so her name shall always be,

The dream girl who can never be mine.